Young and Beautiful

"Hot summer nights, mid-July, when you and I were forever wild. The crazy days, city lights, the way you'd play with me like a child." - Lana Del Rey, Young and Beautiful


I felt the need to blog today since it's been over two months since I last updated! So, a quick update for now and I'm really really hoping to start writing again regularly, especially with school starting soon - writing is one of my favorite ways to decompress and escape!

So in my last post, I mentioned a summer series of past train wrecks, err, I mean "relationships" and maybe a few posts about John. That's all in the works right now.

I also mentioned that I was going to be "relaxing" all summer.....YEAH RIGHT! The summer started with an announcement at work that they were making cuts across the whole health system....I thought "maybe the unit clerks will be fine, most of us know multiple jobs and there are so few of us and we're probably the lowest paid in the department, shouldn't be us"......WRONG! Thankfully I kept my job but I honestly feel bad for the girl who lost hers! Don't get me on my rant about letting a unit clerk go and then hiring a handful of new techs and nurses....I become even more long-winded and upset every time I think about it!

Also, the day after I posted that last blog, I woke up at 3 am screaming in pain from what I thought was appendicitis.....turned out to just be an ovarian cyst (because my body hates me) so my doctor put me on a different birth control. I hate it! My face is a train wreak, I look like a teenage boy no lie! I've gained a good ten pounds in the last 2 months, and I'm just plain angry/cranky....moreso than usual (hard to believe, I know!). Needless to say, I'll take a cysts over this hormonal crap any day so I'm going back to the old stuff! Was that TMI? I don't really care, obviously if you are reading this, you want to share in my pain haha.....

Also, John and I are determined to finally get in shape. We keep yo-yo-ing because of course it's more enjoyable to go out and eat and watch movies than it is to make your own food and work out....but all I know is the jeans that I once felt great in won't button now and I just can't have that! I've been living in dresses and bummy "work out" shorts all summer so nobody notices, but I'm tired of feeling bad about myself. So instead of rewarding ourselves with food, we are working 10 pounds at a time....every 10 pounds we both lose, we get to treat ourselves with something small....but we can't get it until BOTH of us loses, so that we keep motivating each other instead of enabling. So I'll probably head to Sephora for my small splurge while he'll probably get a new video game. Hey....motivation is motivation!

So yea, hasn't been the "best" summer but it's okay. Honestly, my "best" summers fell when I was 8 or 9 or when I was in DC, so, unless I spend a summer on a beach somewhere, it is what it is. But, me being the nerd that I am, I'm really excited for school to start! I will still have my night with mom - we watch TV and she usually cooks for me haha - and one date night with John each week to keep my sanity.....the rest I'll either be working or studying or sleeping.....yay for me! Haha. But really, I couldn't be more excited (and nervous) for it!  I just hope I'm able to work full-time and make it through.