Beautiful

"You're beautiful, you're beautiful. You are made for so much more than all of this. You're beautiful, you're beautiful. You are treasured, you are sacred, you are His." - MercyMe

I love this song! I first heard it a couple of years ago, I was having a rough time and a dear friend texted me one night and told me to listen to. It's great, listen if you haven't heard it!

What's new with me? So glad you asked!

In a nutshell...I'm fat, happy, and stressed about how I'm going to pay for nursing school......wait, what? Yes, that's right. I got into nursing school at....wait for it..... OU...BOOMER SOONER for life!

"But Chiny, I thought you were going to be a PA or maybe still try to be a doctor? "

Originally yes, but truth is, my life has gotten to the point that I am just ready to move forward in some way...I am ready to have a stable career - not worry whether or not my job is safe - not struggle with money anymore. I am ready to enjoy my life more (I enjoy it now, but on a very tight budget lol). I want to enjoy my hobbies (aka, be able to afford them). Is being a nurse going to be enough? No. But it will be for a while. I would love to do a little travel nursing. Ultimately, I will go back for my NP in a few years, which is the same as a PA anyways....it's just taking me longer to get there now. This is good for me. I can still do my medical mission trips or the peace corps that I've always wanted to do. The jobs I've applied for with my Biology degree that sound really interesting to me all want a nursing degree....so the possibilities in my life are going to become nearly endless!

I've applied to PA school twice, and taken the MCAT twice.....both didn't work out. This was my first year to apply to nursing school and had no problems. You have to remember, I was always praying that God put me where he wants me, not where I want to be. I guess He did. On that note, since I love a challenge, I will strive to be in the top 5% of my class!

"Chiny, why do you think you are fat?"

Old age! Plain and simple. Let me clarify, I've got a pooch in my tummy, jiggle on my thighs, and my arms are not toned..people make fun of me for putting hands on my hips in photos, there's a reason I do it! I still have a waist and can fit into some of my favorite clothes, but some jeans and shorts will not button at this time. I had a conversation with a friend today (the same one that sent me that song above) about being "fat"...I said, "I keep trying to remember what I was doing 3 years ago because I looked great and felt great. I went on long walks but that's it." My friend said "We did NOTHING but eat junk food...donuts and Dr. Pepper every day!" I have been going on my long walks which are great...but I've been trying to eat so healthy this year (except for my cheese fry weakness), yet I feel like my body is having a bad reaction to healthy food haha! Wondering if going back to corn dogs, donuts, candy bars etc would help me loose this weight?!?! Haha!!

I've never been "skinny"...I've always had a little wiggle jiggle and curves, but there was a time that I felt great about myself and could wear most clothes without that "I look awful" feeling.

But, I want to maintain "health"...so I'm going to have to figure out a balance. I'll let you know in my Busy Body Blog what that is when I figure it out.

"But, at least you are happy!"

For the most part, yes! I'm not stressing over this weight thing too much. I'll figure it out. I'm on vacation right now, just relaxing and decompressing after a lot of overtime at work and school stress.....but, I made an A in Biochem. John said it was because I had the right boyfriend this time haha! P.S., I plan to write a blog about the train wrecks of my past sometime this summer....it'll be a good read!

John is great - I plan to write a blog about him too - maybe I'll make it a special summer series haha. He's always supportive, always tells me I'm beautiful, and is just good to me. I need that, it helps so much!

I'm really excited to have the summer off to literally go to the pool, work 3 days a week, and sleep or just plain relax! Saving money this summer!

"Saving money...in the summer?!"

As if I didn't do that already, I'm stressing about paying for school. Applying to every scholarship I can find and hoping and praying that I get some and my student loans won't have to be too high. I could use your prayers here.

That's my life update for now! Bye bye loves!