There is something so bittersweet about September......and October.....and November.......and oh what the heck, throw December in there too. Something about the Fall. Something I absolutely love and something I despise all in the same moment.
I can't explain it all that well, but I'll try.
First, I LOVE FALL FASHION. Oh how I love the clothes. BOOTS BOOTS and more BOOTS! And light layers. And leggings. And....you get the idea :)
Second, I LOVE FALL WEATHER. Not too cold but cool enough to just walk outside. Like Spring, but without the allergies! And the leaves are changing.....ahhh, I'm smiling just thinking about it.....
But Fall comes with some feelings that are not so great.....as previously mentioned, bittersweet. Mostly in the way of boys. Since 2007, every year without fail, there has been a boy (whether serious or not so much) or the memory of a boy that there has been some sort of roller coaster emotions with. I won't go into details. Some hurt more than others but either way, I also get both sentimental and sad around this time of year. I even have a playlist that I add to every year for the Fall.......
In Memory - Shinedown
Love, Save the Empty - Erin McCarley
Soft Skeletons -Anberlin
Where I Stood - Missy Higgins
Can't Take My Eyes Off You - Cary Brothers
I Feel It All - Feist
This Is The Thing - Fink
Sooner than Later - Drake
Head or Your Heart - Mat Kearney
Element - Moses Mayfield
Valley of Tomorrow - NeedtoBreathe
Impossible - Anberlin
Un-Thinkable (I'm Ready) - Alicia Keys Ft. Drake
This Perfect Thing - Honestly
Trust Me - The Fray
Vienna - The Fray
Crash And Burn - Lifehouse
Only One - Lifehouse
Still - Matt Nathanson
Can't Be Friends - Trey Songz
Unfortunate - Trey Songz
I Get Lonely Too - Drake
There is something else I love about Fall though, I love the feeling of "starting fresh"......for a lot of people, that comes in the Spring, but not for me. Think of that "back to school" feeling. I even have certain movies I always watch (You've Got Mail and Breakfast at Tiffany's) around this time.
I feel like I'm starting fresh this year, and I have a feeling that bittersweet feeling won't happen this year. I've got too much to look forward to with my *hopeful* future..... plus, I have somebody to talk to and make me smile (let's hope it stays that way, otherwise that'll be the fifth year in a row.....ha!).
It's been a while since I wrote, so I thought I'd try to get back into the swing of things, especially on the eve of my Facebook deactivation.
